Currently listening to [Ho Hey by the Lumineers] on repeat. <3

I’m probably overreacting right now. I just have a bad feeling. Because this has happened to me before. It always happens. I haven’t been in a situation like this where this hasn’t happened. I should have seen it coming. But I was hopeful. But how can you not be when it’s something you want with all your heart? I thought this would be different. But here we are again, worrying that I’ve made the same mistake yet again. Against my better judgement, I fell. I fell for you. I fell for your smile, your laugh, your craziness, your stories, all of it. I was so careful but yet I fell. I kept falling.. And I thought we were getting somewhere. Whether you knew it or not, you gave me every reason to believe that my feelings were being reciprocated. You made me believe that you fell too. Other people found out, I talked to other people about you, I bragged about how sweet you were. And now I have a bad feeling. It’s weird how one harsh text can make you so paranoid. It may seem like I’m overreacting. I hope I’m overreacting. If you texted me back with a friendly message like usual right now, I would jump around and do a happy dance. I wonder if you know how much thought I’m putting into this one small, harsh message. Falling for you made me nervous and scared. Please don’t prove those feelings right. Please.